Friday, March 13, 2015

I apologize for the constant selfies, but I've been feeling great about myself. After a very difficult time of feeling depressed and unhappy, someone told me "Find yyourseld, and Life will Fall into place". I did that. I am grateful for what I have, and am eager to live this life with a smile on my face. Feeling blessed no matter what life throws my way. I hope you all know how fortunate and blessed you are, too! <3

Saturday, February 28, 2015

I will wait

Yesterday, February 18, 2014.

In the morning, I passed by their house.

I saw him again, with his morning face.
I love how he looks like.
I know he don't want to see me yet.
But I already missed him.
we went inside.
I asked how was he.
"Okay lang. I've never been this happy"
I do not know if I should be happy or sad, I'm in between.
"Mabuti naman" I said.
I am trying to stop my tears from falling while I touched his
face.
I really want to take him back but I guess that wasn't the right time yet.
I realized that when you really love the person, you go for what makes them happy regardless if it's with you or not.
I hug him, I cried.
He kissed me. I kissed him back and I cry more harder because I know in my heart I will make our situation more complicated.
The more we do it, the more pain I carry in my heart. And with a heavy heart, I left trying not to cry.
The toughest decision I allow myself to decide is when
I told my self that I will not give up on us. I will not let go. I will wait forever.
It's hard. I know.
As long as I can, I will.

First Week

I understand his priorities
He chose his band over his studies
He chose his band over me. It’s fine.
You sacrificed a lot and I hope one of these days you will prove to yourself that your band is worth losing almost everything you left behind.
I do not know which part of your life you are going to let go next.
As your former girlfriend, I was hurt about your first decision, especially the second one. I might not understand how it is to love your band, to embrace your passion but
I want to let you know that when your world splits in the middle, as long as I may, I will always be here for you.  I do not hate you for leaving me because of  your band, I saw that coming, but I didn’t expect it could be this worse. I got hurt, but it somehow allow me to know the real you, to know your priorities, I never judged you for your decision. As a matter of fact, I am happy of what you are now, we might have changed (a lot), but I will always be the here whether you need me or not J You will always be  my one and only <3